son of man, son of God, lost in the cloud....

today i am heading to the state fair with my kids! i am taking my camera so hopefully i will have pictures for my next post.
i talked ot my friend clay the other night and i wanted to tell him all i was learning but he wanted to talk about how terrible of a person he is. and it wasnt like im so bad i murder people and eat babies it was like im so bad cause sometimes i dont get up hours before i need to so that i can pray and read. now i dont think that its a bad thing to be disiplined and read and pray i try ot do those things every day. i wanted to tell him that we are new creations and that all of our sin is forgiven and that we approach God how we are and he restores us when we fail. im so happy that i dont need to beat myself up and that i dont need to think its the end of the world when i fail. this is part of my journey and He is there through the whole thing.
then i called my friend mandy and it turns out that we are learning some of the same lessons this summer and she is growing and learning and life is so good for her.
and then i called kaleb and he is growing in the opposite direction that i am and its ok because we love eachother sooo much that we can discuss things and love eachother even if we disagree. and i am so glad that i am learning more about what being part of the family of God means.
life is good and i wouldnt want to be anywhere but where i am right now! thank you so much for the joy you have brought me living my life in the present. for blessing me with the mystery and for leaving me with awe!

lamb of God we draw near...

though the fig tree does no tbud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in teh pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet i will rejoice in teh Lord, i will be joyful in God my Savior, the soveriegn Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. Habakkuk 3. 17-19

reading War of Words by paul tripp and there are some really great ideas so far. i think that some of the best things that he has said invovlve God desiring to not make me successful but to make me Holy and when i get frustrated that i havent accomplished everything i desired that i should know what counts the most is my character. the second thing that i think has been challenging is the purpose of our words which are twofold. first to bring glory to God and second the are used by God to redeem those around us. God is interested in the redeption of mankind and he has chosen our words to be the vehicle. the purpose of our words are worship and redemption.

i have been listening to Sufjan stevens album seven swans a lot lately and the last song transfiguration is soo good, i love it. i want to get illinoise because sufjan is probably one of my favorite artist right now. i suppose that i will have to order it off the internet unless walmart has it(thats was a joke) since there isnt anywhere in town to get music besides wal mart. i guess on saturday when i take the kids to the state fare i could sneak off and try to find a music store and starbucks. hummm that sounds like a pretty good idea!

theres no denying this is what you are...

got a new phone you know one that works in williston so that i could talk with friends. if you would like my number than you should e mail me or leave me some way to get a hold of you so that i can give you my number. its verizon so if you have verizon we could talk all you ever wanted. if not ill probably call you after 9.
i have found my self praying along with mark 9 i Believe! help my unbelief... there are things i am trying to figure out things that seem so contrary to everything that i have been raised to believe. things that have been there all along but someone with eyesight a little better than mine has pointed me a new direction. i admit that i like to feel safe and for that reason i have settled for quite a tame faith. i want the mystery i want the faith that risks it all.

sing loud the stars laugh...ive been here all along...

today i mailed a letter which could possibly be one of my favorite things to do. no one ever sits down and writes a letter anymore. there is nothing quite like the feeling you get when your name is on the front of the envelope and some one has taken the time to tell you about their life. e mail is convienient and blogs are even stopping the frequincy of that. somtimes i feel as if my relationships were reduced to comments. dont get me wrong i love comments, they are nice quick and easy too. e mails require a little time but there is just something amazing about an envelope with my name on it that sends me through the roof. if you are wondering how you gte people to write you letters well i will tell you the secret. what you do is write a bunch of people and then see who writes back and then you continue correspondance with those willing to write back. its been a good summer for letters as i have recieved 5 letters and one care package. my sister sent me the best care package!
tonight leland cooked steak on teh grill and we are having tiramisu for desert! tag team effort form the men of the house to make one amazing meal... im just not sure how beverly does it all the time and works full time. women amaze me!

i need thee oh i need thee every hour i need thee...

tonight i was craving tiramisu (italian desert made with mascarpone cheese and ladyfingersdipped in expresso and brandy)so i went to the store and bought some mascarpone cheese lady fingers and brandy. i was a little nervous since williston is such a small town that everyone would know that the youth pastor of first baptist bought a small bottle of brandy so i pretty much told the lady at the counter everything about tiramisu and how great it was and about how thats all i was going to use the brandy for and im sure she thought i was a little nutty. so andrew (my 4 year old friend) helped me mix all teh ingrediants and we made a nice big tiramisu. unfortunately you have to freeze it so its in the freezer right now not partially in my belly. ok im a liar and i snuck a small half froze piece which i might add was delicious. next time i make it i will need ot buy two bags of lady fingers though since they were a little sparce in the mix.
today i finished velvet elvis:repainting the christian faith and i think it was one of the most challenging books that i have ever read. i love how rob bell communicates and i love how he doesnt think that he is the know all end all of christian faith. since pride is a sin that easily slips into my life this is an encouraging thought. i plan on reading the book again in a few weeks so that i can rethink some of the ideas. the last chapter was about how we are new creations in christ and that the old man is passed away. this isnt a new idea by anymeans but he did have a fresh take on it. someitmes i forget the regeneration that has taken place in my life sometimes i doubt that christ work was complete in cleansing my sin. i think that he is keeping tabs on all the times i mess up but he isnt. i am forgiven completely.
i think my favorite part of the book was that he pointed out the wit of john who says mary didnt recognize christ after his resurection. she says oh well i thought you were the *Gardener* why is this witty? well let me tell you about genesis and where everything started, in the Garden! yeah Jesus came to make all things new and john thought it was kinda funny. thanks john!
lots of ideas floating around in my head and tonight more than ever i feel like i am on the right track doing the right thing. its almost like life is starting to make sense. almost. maybe. for now.

the Lord is in his holy temple the whole world is silent before him...

habakkuk 2:20 was one of the verses that i used today in sunday school to try and help the kids understand that there are benefits to being silent before the Lord. and there is a reverence that we should be able to enter when we are thinking about God and his holiness. im not sure any of the kids get it. thats fine i guess i will plant the seed and pray that someone else waters it. but it is frustrating to ask the kids if they thinkit is important to have a time where we are sitting silently before God not praying and asking for things not even praising but being silent and letting his glory fill us. the kids decided that it was important but not important enough to take the time and do it. like i said hope fully the thought is there for someone else ot cultivate.
tonight i took the kids swimming at the public pool we rented it out and we had about 15 kidds and 7 adults so that was cool. unfortunately i over heard one of my kidds talking about his plans to drink when he went to another country with a lower drinking age. i dont know if he is just trying to impress this girl who was visiting or if he really wants to drink. im not sure what to do since i think he already feels like he isnt really a part of anything that we do so i dont want to tell his dad. but i also dont want him to think i suppost the idea of him drinking and thats why i havent said anyhing. well i guess this is one of the first real challenges that i will get to deal with along this journey.
still trying to think about what i will do during the fall for the kids. i want to communicate to them the type of life that they could be living. the new creation they are in christ able to live a righteous life in christ i life of love in christ. sometimes i feel like i am starting to make some progress with the kidds and i hope they like having me around and i hope i give them something worth while.

id swim across lake michigan for you...

is all truth Gods truth? can we claim something to be of Gods essence because it is true? could we take something that someone of another faith said and say they got it right thats truth? could we bring that truth into our own faith because it is true and that makes it from God?
where is God somewhere out there or is he here? where is the kingdom somewhere out there or is it here? can people experience God without being christians? are we bringing God to a place or was he always there and we are just starting ot see him? are there only certain places that are holy or are we just to distracted to recognize that places are holy? are holy places only somewhere that life and beauty are taking place or can we experience all that is holy in tragedy and pain?

questiones lead to more questiones and it is in the questiones that i feel like i am starting ot find life. starting to find truth. beaing awakened to the holy place so that i might join jacob and say surely God is in the place and didnt even know it...Bethel...

"...be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now."

i can see a lot of bright in you...

last night i was reading velvet elvis by rob bell and i am almost through the second chapter but there was so much there that i had to stop and think about so much that i had to contemplate and i am sure that i am going to read and reread this book with awe for God every time. and so at the end of my time reading i was sitting there thinking about where i had been spiritually and how i am changing and how sometimes that change is taking place and you arent even sure how that happened or what it is you are being changed into and i was so overwhelmed that i said *God i dont know where you are taking me and i dont know how this is going to end up and im not even sure about a lot of things i used to think but im excited and im ready for this ride so consume me and use me and make me what you want me to be.* sometimes life is scary and sometimes thats the best way for it to be. i will share some of the thoughts from the book soon but i am still digesting them and working through them. so maybe i will share them soon but maybe it will take me a while.

close your eyes to the suns blinding light...

yesterday i went to the book store and the lady said that at the national book sellers conference she just got back from she had a good time and she picked me up a few things. i thought that was kinda wierd but pretty nice since i had talked to her a few times i thought she might have gotten me something good. i was pretty happy when i got there today and she handed me the new rob bell book velvet elvis repainting the christian faith. i read the preface and i am excited to jump in and see what mr bell has to say about all of this. it moved right to the front of my reading list. i also thought that i might let you know that it turns out i am going to stay in williston for the fall also and the first part of winter. well maybe its actually until winter officially begins on the calendar but ill be here until december. i am hoping to take a 10 day vacation to see kaleb and head to the north east with him. thats right what could be better than a romantic trip in the fall with your best friend.
so i am going to start looking for a part time job for the fall and i will still work at the church. i am pretty excited and i think that i will be able to keep reading a lot which is exciting. i have also decided that i am going to go through with the counseling and finish up my degree at bbc in the spring. i was just to close to leave it be.
i am happy also to tell you that this is my 100th entry on my blog. triple digets sweet!

love hurts...

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements;lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from the dangers…of love is Hell.” - C.S. Lewis

im not broken hearted today i just thought that this was a nice quote. lewis you are a much wiser man than i am and that is why i read. after all readers are leaders!

i fell behind so you got ahead...

yesterday after church i hung out with landon we always have a good time talking about life and God and music and then we watch a movie. yesterday we watched million dollar baby and i was suprised how good it was. i like movies that make you think and that one got me thinking for sure. then i went to heidi skaares house and she made me dinner. me and her and her sister ate some smothered chicken(it had saute`d peppers onions and melted cheese ove rit)sweet potatoe french fries, rice, and chestnut squash with brown sugar in it. it was an amzing meal and i thought one day when i have a wife i hope that she can cook! or maybe that i will be able to cook better than i can now. and then we watched finding never land which i thought was sad for several different reasons. but it was a good movie. i really enjoyed it.
talked to my kids yesterday about church. we talked about 1 peter 2:5 And now God is building you, as living stones, into his spiritual temple. What's more, you are God's holy priests, who offer the spiritual sacrifices that please him because of Jesus Christ. i asked the kids what part of the church they were or what they thought that they brought to the church. it was a god time we had a pretty good discussion. i think that the kids are getting more into things and im not sure they are getting it but i suppose that these things took a while to make their way into my mind. im glad that i get to present truth to the kids and i am glad that they atleast are engaging in conversation with me about that truth.
started on teh road with jack kerouak and i think that it is going to be a real good book but im sure it will make me want to get on the road. kaleb talked about a road trip in the fall to the northeast. october and changing trees hangin out with my best friend... its gunna be sweet!

good ol jd...

no no not the booze...jd salinger the author of catcher in the the rye. finished up this book on my way to the water park yesterday and there were some great things in it that i thought i should share with you.
*i was about half in love with her by the time we sat down. thats the things about girls. every time they do something pretty even if theyre not much to look at or even if theyre sort of stupid you fall half in love with them and then you never know where the hell you are. girls jeez they can drive you crazy they really can. *
holden caulfield knew what he was talking about
*its funny all you have to do is something that nobody understands and theyll do practically anything you want them to.* so when you are in a jam all you have to do is act like you have a bum leg and say something wierd about it and then you get by in life you get what you want. hummmm i guess ill have to try this one out.
*among other things youll find that youre not the first person who was ever confused and freightened and even sickened by human behaviour youre by no means alone on that score, youll be excited and stimulated to know man many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. happily some of them kept records of their troubles youll learn from them if you want to just as someday if you have something to offer someone will learn something from you. its a beautiful recipricol arrangement and it isnt education its history! its poetry!* this one killed me cause i was talking to leland tonight about mentorship and how i think that it is necessary for young guys to find people who will invest in them and who will poor thier lives into them so that the young guys can learn to bare the torch and live a life that will benefit the generations to come. leland has been someone that has inversted in me and i really appreaciate him. more than he will ever know im sure.
*something else and academic education will do for you if you fo along with it any considerable distance , itll begin to give you an idea what size mind you havee. what itll fit and maybe what it wont. after a whileyoull have an idea what kind of thoughts your particular size mind should be wearing. for one thing it mar save you an extraordinary amount of time trying on ideas that dsont suit you, arent becoming to you. youll begin to know your true measurememnts and dress your mind accordingly.* i thought this was a good quote and i think it is one that makes me want to read more books and try on more ideas so that i can dress my mind accordingly so i can know the size and measure of whats in my head. i think that God gave us brains and i want to stretch and work mine into something that is honoring to him. that means you gotta work it out.
*everytime id get to the end of a block id make believe i was talking to my brother allie id say to him " allie dont let me disappear allie dont let me disappear allie dont let me disappear please allie" and then when id reach the other side of the street with out disappearing id thank him.* i just liked this part of the book cause it was close to the end when everything was really falling to pieces. its funny the things you start to think whenever you feel like you are loosing it. whenever you feel like you are disapearing.
*dont ever tell anybody anything if you do you start missing every body!* why this quote? well its the last line of the book and i think that it makes me think of my time here in williston kinda. right now i am telling the stories of this other life i lived in missouri and soon enough it could be stories about the life that i lived in williston. the same way i miss pondo these huge chunks of my life and they are all spread out over the uninted states. and the stories i tell keep them close to my heart. everytime i bring up a memory i think about places i lived and loved and i know there is still a part of me there.
sorry i didnt mean to get all sentamental. had fun at teh water park and the gross games were well gross and why north dakotans think its fun to play games with a cow heart is beyond me... the kids had fun in the mudd pitt but not too fond of the games. i got pretty muddy and that was the part i liked best also.
i was looking forward to coming home to get an e mail or a letter or somethign but when i got here there wasnt anything and i felt a little sad but i got over it. im tired and im going to bed.

hungry like the wolf!

so last night i was talking to ben jennings and he started talking about music and we like some f the same bands but then i realized that i am pretty much a music snob and that there were a lot of bands he liked that i thought were pretty aweful! i made fun of his music a little and then he told me he was glad i didnt like everything. but i felt like a jerk. sorry i dont like mae and i think they are too predictable and too polished. it just isnt my favorite sound.
i guess im a movie snob too but the good news is that charlie and the choclate factory is out and i am excited to see it. biggest hit of the summer.
im heading out to bismark this morning to the water park with my kidds. it should be fun and ill prolly get burnt cause i havent been out in the california sun this summer to get nice and tan. i am a little nervous though becuase no one knows that i have a couple huge tatoos. dahwell... what can you do.
patience i need a little patience i know it all works out in the end and that this is the process of life and living. sometimes i want to get to the part where i look back and see the big picture so much that i forget to enjoy right now. thanks for all that you have brought to my life right now. it has made summer nice.

the glow!

i have been listening to the microphones *the glow pt2* all day and its so great! i have a couple chapters left in catcher in the rye and then i will start on the road by jack karouak. today i helped a friend put her pictures on the web from her mission trip. i think i would like to take a mission trip and then sometimes i think north dakota has been a mission trip. i wonder if i would just get burnt out wherever i was if there werent people around after 6 at night. man.
who ever wants to send me something should send it to the house i am staying at in north dakota. the adress there is 1616 4th avenue east williston nd 58801.
tomorrow i am going with the kidds to ragging rivers water park and i think it is going to be pretty sweet. i like those big crazy slides where you speed down them and if youre me then you try to keep your pants up most the day but its no use your crack just shows and shows. man!
i am also reading war of words getting to the heart of your communication problems its pretty interesting so far. the first chapter was a reflection of life in genesis 1&2 when God was speaking with adam and eve and there were no communication problems. chapter 2 is about how satan brougth the problems in with lieing decieving manipulating and all the ways we use words to hurt and harm eachother. its a pretty amazing thought that something as simple as a word or thoughts can change the course of history and how hurtful and painful words can be. so sorry if i ever hurt you with my words sorry if i brought pain into your life that could have been easily avoided. im trying to grow and change and i hope that i can communicate better so that i dont hurt people anymore.

just so cumffy cozy never ever lonely...

two hours later i got that feeling still the one where your skin is just crawling and you want to scream at the top of you rlungs and get out of here but youre stuck. watched tv then rhode the bike and checked my email nothing nothing nothing...
sometimes i think it is because i cant remember the last person who i hugged. well i guess i can it is andrew. my only source of comfort in this town is a 4 year old boy who misses me everytime i leave and makes sure i give him a hug before i head out the door.

im having trouble trying to sleep...

sometimes i dont mind that williston is so small and then there are nights like tonight where i wish i could go somewhere or do something or be around people! im getting that suffocating feeling again! the one where i feel like getting in my truck and driving home. i only made it to the edge of town tonight but i think maybe that i need to leave in september. sometimes i feel like i just dont have a clue whats going on and i feel like i shouldnt have even come. why is life so frustrating and why so i just freak out!
there are so many things i want to ask you but i think that you are just too far away right now and have enough to think about. anyway it was a nice 2 hour talk and im gld you gave up a little sleep for me. you confuse me so much and im not afraid to say i dont get it...

the catcher in the rye!

i was doing pretty good about reading books ta tmade me think about life and God and those sorts of things and then i read the giver in a few days and for teh last two days i have been completly captivated by the catcher in the rye. its good! i love the way that holden caulfield talks i love the things he says and the way he looks at other people. there are some good quotes that i wanted to share but i left the book in my truck so maybe tomorrow. it was a good day and i talked to the pastor about what would happen if i left in september and there is a meeting tomorrow to discuss what will happen and i might end up staying around as they look for someone else. maybe i will end up staying in williston until january. ill keep you updated.
landon let me borrow the microphones *the glow pt2* and i think you should listen to it. although my advice is that you listen to it through headphones because there is a lot going on that you dont catch otherwise.
you could go camping if you wanted because it will be in august. im not sure when you leave for school but i think we are going on a weekend retreat the 12th that you could come on also if you wanted. hope you are feeling better.

one is the lonliest number that youll ever do...

the scavenger hunt that i prepared went well. so much so in fact one of the parents called me to tell me i did a good job. i was a little surprised but very happy that eveyrone was having a good time. tried to think of something to put on the calendar for august but wasnt sucessful. i think we may go camping though. that would be a good time. well as long as the mesquitos got the memo to leave us alone. i also thought today that it would be fun to have a pizza party and watch napolian dynomite. that would pretty much be the best activity i ever planned.
one of the girls from church backed into my truck which sucks but it was just a little dent. so i need to go and have that estimated.
tonight i watched life as a house and it was pretty amazing. i realy liked it and it made me miss so cal so much! thanks sista for recomending it.
26 days until my sisters birthday and i think that august 8th is going to be a pretty good day!

life between the trees...

last year mike asked a question every time he spoke that didnt make much sense to me. and today i found myself asking the question to my kids and it didnt make much sense to them today. i hope that the question will haunt them the way it has haunted me and that their mind wont forget it.

is this type of life worth living if there is no heaven or hell?

my first thoughts last year were no it isnt the sacrafice is to great for no benefits no punishments and no final reward. it wouldnt make any since to live this kind of life if there was something to be living for.

my thoughts now... yess absolutely this is the best way for me to live and infact it is the only way i hope i ever live. why? because living a life that serves others and a life that desires to bring peace justice and reconcilliation to the world i smuch better than one that would only serve self to the point of destruction. i suppose that i feel like i have found life in service and that i have found peace in shinning this light to others and i know there is a reward at the end but i feel like a focus on the end will distract me from the now. i cant imagine living this life as if it were a waiting room only holding on to my ticket and hoping to help others gain thiers. the world turns this all around doesnt it. the ones we are to care about are the fahterless the widows and foreigners. these are the outcast the lowly the ones in need of care in need of good news. open my eyes wider so that i may see the true needs around me!

whatever it takes to make you feel that youve been the one behind the wheel...

back from camp had a good time with the 6th grade boys and havent slept much at all. took some pictures and there were a couple i liked but turns out that wal mart in williston had a broken burner and so they couldnt make me a picture cd. had some good talks with friends when i got back talked to jeremy about living with him in the unfinished houses that his parents are working on and it sounded pretty exciting. so i am glad to know where i will possibly live when i get back to springfield. talked to kaleb and he wants me to live in kansas city. i just dont know though i mean there is something about that place that never sits right with me. i mean i just feel wierd there.
we will have a scavenger hunt on sunday and i am excited about it i mean the kids seem like htey are excited to do it and that makes me excited. camp was good and i met some of the youth pastors around the state and it was interesting to find out that kids all over north dakota wont commit to anything and i thought it was just me. there were some meetings i sat through were i just had to keep my mouth shut like i have learned to do a lot this summer. there are a lot of things that im not sure about. and a lot of questions that i want to ask but i dont want to be chased off. i figure i can do more good being here than being run out of north dakota.
hope that tokyo is all you dreamed it would be and that you are doing so good teaching the kids english. sorry i didnt get to say bye for real. i mean you know to say bye on your last day to have a phone. i thought about you though.
reinforcements are on the way!

is there something more that youre not telling me...

went to the lake yesterday had fun. the family was very nice to me. sometimes i am surprised at just how unsocial i want to be. i guess its always harder to spend time wiht people you dont know when you have spent your life making amazing memories wih people you love.
im leaving for camp today around noon and i am excited that its camp i am not excited that it s junior camp. but i suppose that i will make the most of it and we will have some kinda fun. there are a lot of things that i need to prepare though and my sunday school lesson and get everything together for my scanvenger hunt and i wont get back until saturday so i guess i wont sleep too much on saturday night.
things are going well

happy 4th of july...

last night we (me and the oxendhals and others) shot off a lot of fireworks and everyone was having fun for a while and then i was the only one shooting things off and everyone was laughing and daring me to do stupid things. i would say that whoever made fireworks legal either liked watching people look stoopid or didnt know people like me would do stoopid things. id say that the worst thing i thought would be ok was shooting an bootle rocket from the hole in my hat. it didnt shoot out it just rained showers of sparks on me and then blew up. i tried to run away from it but it was on my head so that didnt work so well. im not sure what it is about life but sometimes i remember who i was in highschool because i am acting like thats who i am again.
i am going to the lake today with the blacks and i know there are things that might be more fun but they invited me and i think they are quite a nice family. im sure it will be fun and probably a lot less dangerous. i mean atleast all my limbs and digets will still be intact after today!

oh no! we lost control again...

went to the street dance in williston last night... yeah it was the most tame display of public drunkenness that i have ever seen. they coralled all the boozers (i was not one of them) into on section and then all the sober people stood in front of the band and didnt dance. man i took my camera and was ready for something nutty i wanted a lion and williston brought a kitty!!! i suppose that is because the pub crawls in springfield invovle about 10,000 more people and they are all younger. oh well it was still pretty fun.
today i went to the parade (maybe the shortest parade ive ever seen) and ten minutes later everyone was in teh park to get their free hotdog! yeah boy i love williston. it was a great day and i think that im excited for the activity at church tonight though i dont think anyone will show up. i prepare for the worst and hope for the best. hope doesnt get you far though.
chelsea as far as taking the pictures for your entire wedding that scares the crap out of me cause if you dont like them i could possibly ruin teh best day of your life. that isnt something that i like to think about. anyway well talk and im sure if you can convince me that you wouldnt be mad if they werent everything you ever dreamed of them im in.
while i was at the street dance i ran into father hack a new priest at the catholic church in town and he told me that i probably shouldnt go to confession and that i was welcome to attend mass but i wouldnt be allowed to take communion. i didnt know they took communion every day thats amazing. so i am impressed/jealous that the catholics meet everyday congregationally and that they are concerned enough to take communion everyday also so that they can be in the presenc eof christ every day. i love that i can meet with christ on my own but to congregate every daywould be awesome. i dunno i love being at church and i wish that i could hear a sermon every day. life is good and things are great a lady fom church let me borrow a copy of the giver and i am excited to read it. next week is kidds camp and i am pumped to go. i mean atleast i will not miss a year of camp (at least this year) even if it is kidds camp.