im having trouble trying to sleep...

sometimes i dont mind that williston is so small and then there are nights like tonight where i wish i could go somewhere or do something or be around people! im getting that suffocating feeling again! the one where i feel like getting in my truck and driving home. i only made it to the edge of town tonight but i think maybe that i need to leave in september. sometimes i feel like i just dont have a clue whats going on and i feel like i shouldnt have even come. why is life so frustrating and why so i just freak out!
there are so many things i want to ask you but i think that you are just too far away right now and have enough to think about. anyway it was a nice 2 hour talk and im gld you gave up a little sleep for me. you confuse me so much and im not afraid to say i dont get it...