if i told you that i was thinking of moving east...would you save a place for me

tonight i got a phone call from this guy who i used to go to church with in kansas city but he and his wife moved to north dakota. i thought that it was wierd that he would call me but as i listened to the message he left i realized that he was asking me to move to north dakota. or atleast to think about it and to be the youth pastor at thier church. i have a ton of questions and there is so much fear in my heart that im not sure i would be able to do it. but i am going to think about it for sure. funny that south dakota is more po dunk than missouri and the weather is way worse. i mean its still so cold up there. the wierdest thing is that it would start this summer, so alyssa dont buy a ticket yet. i think actually if it looks good then i am going to go! i will let you know more when i talk to leland. maybe ill be packing my bags and heading north.

the art in heart...

just thought i would let you know that if you wanted to have any of my art well then you are going to need to show me some sort of attention that will make me have a crush on you. yeah... no not summer havent even seen that chick since i wrote about how i liked her last. a different girl but a pretty cool one. im not sure what she does with all the art that i have given her but i added two 8x10 pictures to that list monday. the were new port sunsets. they were really nice matted with blue matte and a nice dark brown frame really brought out some of the colors in teh clouds and waves. when i took them to her we sat in the truck for an hour and talcked and i have been thinkin about her since then. if you were wondering i have painted her a picture framed it, framed a 4x6 picture that i typed on for her, drawn her pictures, written quotes on nice pieces of paper and finally framed her some photography. so i pretty much decorated her dorm room. i mean maybe one day she could open a gallery of my art.
my brother called today and he is coming down with nikki so im pretty stoked about that. i mean this is going to be the first time that the siblings have gotten together outside of kansas city and im stoked about it. so stoked infact that i am going to make an itenerary of things to do while they are here. yeah i am a dork but we will have a plan... you are all invited to teh party may 15-20

designed to fight but not to win...

today i was thinking that i was pretty much one of the most fearful people that i know of. and last night while i was reading in isaiah it was where the thought started. i cant even sell rooms at a hotel to people that i dont know who dont care about me at the regular price because i am so scared that they wont like me. i try to convince myself that its because i dont think our hotel rooms are worth as much as we are asking. i also tell myself that i just dont think its right to sell a room for the full price for only part of the time but the truth is i want to be cool. i want other people to like me. man what in the world is my problem. i wish that i could live my life only fearing christ and that i could worship him without other idols getting in the way. please God let me serve you with my whole heart.

summer is coming!

school is almost over and even though i only have one class it is still a relief. and as summer comes i am most excited about the ever present change in music with seasons. enough of that sad music summer is time for punk rock and other catchy music that makes you want to run around and have fun. i have kicked off the summer music change by listening to millencollin: penny bridge pioneers. man the whole thing is catchy and fun!
here is something else i was thinking! YEAH I GET CRAZY IDEAS WHILE WORKING ALONE ALL NITE!!! you should all get jobs at restauraunts. why you ask well let me tell you, today while i was on break i asked for a sandwhich and the cook told me to make it myself. are you serious? oh yeah i could barely finish the piping hot toast slice of heaven. it was big it was good and if it was on teh menu im sure it would cost somewhere around 20 dollars. and that is why you should work in a resauraunt. the perfect sandwhich endless posibilities of sandwhich satisfaction. a one time dream come true your very own creation fit to satisfy your craving. i cant even believe it im so pumped to go to work tomorrow just to see what i can cram between two slices of bread! and if you dont think im serious call me around 3 o'clock but ill go ahead and warn you i might not be able to talk.
did i tell you guys about jeremylarsonmusic.com if i did you should go back if not you should go. his sandwhiches arent as good as mine but he makes some decent music!

well be palms in paradise...

so its not just like i meet prostitutes and strippers at the hotel but you know its not much fun to write about some normal 40 year old dude on business. its not all exciting though, tonight i checked in this girl with a black eye and i just wanted to hug her. man what a tough boyfriend she has punching her in teh face seriously i wish i could drive to her house and beat the crap out of this dude with a baseball bat. its so akward checking her in i asked to see her id (standard procedure) and she said you might not recognize me without the black eye. man abuse sucks.
i went to second baptist tonight and it was good. i like that church and the preacher is good. he is talking about john 4 where jesus encounters the woman at teh well. he has brought some interesting thoughts out of this chapter and they have challenged me and tonight i was convicted big time. i think i will keep looking around on sunday mornings but that i will atleast finish out this series on sunday nights. looking for a new church is exciting but also stressful. well life is good.

you are so boring...

there is this girl at work and she is such a princess ut not in a good way. and tonight she was showing everyone all these pictures of her and her boyfriend and they were just pictures that someone with a camera took. i know that i am semi talented but really anyone could have taken these and she was talking about how great they were and all i wanted to say is your so boring just like your pictures. oh well... long weekend lot of work and i cant wait to sleep in 5 hours. its almost over i am 13 hours in to an 18 hour work day on 2 hours of sleep after working 12 then going to class. wow life is busy maybe it slows down some day...

and in the end the dreams you dreamed are you you ever were...

last night i went to see flickerstick and the opening band was exposure a local band with a lot of talent. then 2 other bands played also local but im not sure i would sy there was one lick of talent. i actually left for those bands because my ears were starting to bleed. i went across the street to st. michaels. thats the deli that nicki russo owns thats sams cousin. so nicki's daughter was there and she is really nice. so i talked to her while i was waiting for flickerstick. you may have been way to cool to watch vh-1 bands on the run 3 or 4 years back but the winner was flickerstick and they are a really talented band. they are awesome and i am glad i went to see them. no good hotel stories i mean they are the most exciting thing that happens and not much is happening lately. hopefully ill have some good stuff soon. anyway check out flickerstick.

lessons learned from dad....

when going on family vacation with the lebrun family to laguna one time we were exiting the highway and aaron gave a bum some money. i htought it was strange since i figured he would waste it. but aaron told me that since god has blessed him so much with all that he has it just makes sense to bless other people. well since then i have decided if i have cash to try and bless the less fortunate even if its a scam and even if they will use it to buy drugs or alcohol. im not responsible to give make sure they use it wisely just that they are able to eat if they want to.
anyway this lady came in last night and she kept calling me handsome and telling me how much she liked big guys and all this and she also told me she just spent the last 64 days in prison and had all her stuff thrown out of the hotel she was living in. then she told me that a guest at our hotel had stolen some of her stuff and she asked what room he was stayig in but you know thats sort of illegal and i could loose my job for it. so i told her i didnt know where the guy she was looking for was and she told me she didnt have money for anything so i felt pretty sorry for her and i had 5 bucks so i passed it on. thanks for the life lesson aaron! and hopefully the ending to this story teaches you guys a lesson... yeah there is an exciting finally! so after i give her the money she demands that i come hug her and then she asks me to watch out for her, and i quote, *big ol breasts* you know so i dont squish them and i just laughed and let her hug me then she asks if i love the bible as much as she does and i say yeah i like it pretty well. she quoted some psalms and then asked for my number. im not sure why i gave it to her but i did. not even just 7 random numbers not some elses number my number. and her response was that she wanted to talk some time and maybe she would say sweet things to me and, another exact quote moment, *i bet it gets lonely around here and you aint got no girl friend i can talk a dirty to you. (this part might not ne appropriate for sensitive readers so stop if you dont want to be grossed out) i know i aint got no man to love and all my stuff got thrown out i dont even have my vibrator to love myself...* i dunno what do you say to that. it was a pretty instant feeling of regret giving a 50 year old crazy woman my number... yeah im an idiot!

oh no not again!

so it has been quite a while since i have blogged about yeah you guest it a female! and what a lovely one she is. i think i havent talked about the last couple incidences with the opposite sex that i have had cause they were wierd and i dont even know what i was thinking. so here is a quick run down of my most recent failed attempts and blunders. michelle so you know is dating her x boyfriend who is a complete tool and plays in a real sucky band! moving on why in the world would i think that maybe one of the most conservative girls i know would want anything to do with me? i dont know but i thought it would be a good idea to ask her to dinner and she must have had a momentary loss of conservativeness because she went. but it didnt take long to get akward. upon arrival at digiacintos the chef *bob* wanted to know what i was going to be drinking tonight. not a wierd question on any other night but when i have ms. conservative with me its hard to play that one off. so i said probably just osme water. but my friend bob kept it up some wine maybe a little hennessee you know your the ladies man. yeah yeah i drink the expensive stuff cause i dont buy it! duh! and so i say nah just osme water maybe get crazy with a lemon in it and then he ask which wine i like the best and i figure it had to happen sometime sso id confess by admitting that i really like white wine and a particular favorite is umberto fiore a nice sweet desert type wine. i kinda expected her to walk out but we made it through dinner i dropped her off and i explained that alcohol can be consumed in moderation the same way indulgence in food is glutony and she ended the night by saying yeah sometimes i can be a little judgmental. ha. and a couple more went to coffee with laura which is a girl i used to talk to a long time ago 3 years probably. and we hung out a little more after coffee and again went to digiacintos but this time for drinks and she had a good time and the night ended like this... thanks for hanging out but lets not talk about this cause my boyfriend already hates you! ok bad idea dont know why i agreed to hang out but she asked so i went. and finally i called marie last night but she was getting ready for bed so i wussed out. oh well. i wasnt sure i wanted to ask her anyway but mostly i thought i would ask cause i havent asked anyone in a while. and clay asked out michelle and the scene was kinda like that one on black hawk down where the rpg takes out the heli yeah a pretty bad one shot down like a champ. so i couldnt do it cause i didnt care. and no thats not the end that was the the last bit to catch you up on. and so here now is the fantastic story of the girl i like now.

her name is summer. she works at barnes and nobles cafe and i thought she was beautiful the first time that i layed eyes on her. last semester but then i stopped going to barnes and nobles cuase well mostly cause i was getting free drinks from my good friends at starbucks. so i have recently started going back to bnn mostly cause i missed the people i used to see there. so the other night i saw summer and robin and i asked them how they were. they said good and then asked where i was heading i said work and they said well we will come visit you when we are done. i thought it was cool and they stayed for 4 hours. nice made the night go by pretty quick. during the first visit and yes there was a second ill get to that, they asked if they could come swim. so i said of course and have been thinking of summer since. well tonight i went to bnn and got a cup of tea cause its tasty and cheaper than coffee. summer was working and so were robin and lacey. they told me that they were coming up to work and they brought snacks the increddibles to watch and their bathing suits. what a good night. summer did her homework and the other 3 girls smaw. so i did what any good friend would do and distracted summer form her homework the whole time. i wanted to ask her out tonight but iwasnt real confident so maybe next time. anyway it gives me someone to think about now. i havent had a crush in a couple months so i guess its about time agian. ok well life is good and things are great. aaron sorry to cut the conversation short and man i hope that we can talk again soon you always encourage me and i love you for it. nikki good luck with the poop situation and always plunge before you try the reflush i mean come on you actl like you never stopped up a toilet before. alyssa im glad im not the only white trash one out there and i love all you guys!