one day it just snowed i guess, they closed the roads that lead to your heart...

back in williston and last night was good. got back to town and then hung out with a friend. watched hostage. that was a pretty intense movie. i didnt think it was too bad either i mean every time i see bruce willis i usually just wonder what he is going to shoot or blow up or how many terrorist he will kill with only one clip. i guess im more into dramas and artsy films but everyonce in a while i guess you need to see something blow up.
went to the office today and i am having the same feeling i had at the begginng where i just feel like i am just here and am not making a difference or that im not living up to the expectations that have been set for me. talked to nikki alot about camp and sometimes i think i am missing out on the best thing. i suppose that it was the same way phillip felt in the middle of that big ol revival and God told him to take that desolate dessert road where he met the ethiopian. hopefully i will make a difference in one persons life.
i talked to kaleb and i think i will be living in springfield atleast for the fall and i think i am ok with that. it will be good to be back in a familliar place. finished a couple more books and i am going to start a few more this week. its almost teh 4th of july and i like fireworks so i am excited. we planned a youth activity for saturday there is a community that has a big display so even if no one shows up im excited to see some good fireworks. (i wish you were going to be here so i could sit on the tailgate o fmy truck and watch them with you)