i need you so much closer. . .

on sunday i thought about nikki a lot. at church there was a lady who sang a song and it said something like we can show we are thankful by our thanks-living and i thought it was ok but kinda cheesy and then i thought about nikki and how if we were sitting beside eachother it would have been over. you know that feeling where you look down and your face is burning and your cheeks get sore cause you are holding in the biggest laugh in the world and then you look at your sibbling and you almost loose it cause you know they are thinking the same thing. well thats how me and nikki are only sunday there was no one to look at and no to to try not to laugh with. i miss you a lot sister. i work a lot this week every night at both places. but you know what else is there to do??? i am already allocating all the money i will make you know im gunna get a new camera well kalebs old one and then im gunna get a g4 and then im gunna get a car its funny how the thought of money makes you want stuff you dont need and how you just get more and more greedy. i started giving bums money thats what i have decided to do thanks to my good friend aaron lebrun i wanted to do it for a while but i didnt even have money for myself much less bums. and that whole thing in leviticus that i read about where it was actually law to take care of bums and such. oh well. so thats me attempting to cast my bread out into the water...chelsea when is your wedding and i never had the nick name loser. rayna hows the camera that your pops gave you? everyone else i love you all...