chase what makes your heart flutter...

last night i got off work around 10 30 then i went to star bucks and got some coffee then i stopped by shelas and gave her a roll of film and we talked about some art stuff a little. i wrote on the roll of film Fall (in love) 04 and i told her about this art project that i had in mind when i was taking the pictures of the trees for her. basicly i think fall would be a nice time to have a significant other and i have some leaves that i have pressed between book pages and i wanted to collage them into a spray paint oil pastel sort of mess and call it art. shela said it sounded fun. i called up sean koonce whos number i will post later for you amanda and he was over at todds playing halo 2 man that game is crazy. i played i mean i was a target a little and tehn i came home cause it was 2 and i had to get up at 5 45. i worked from 7-3 and then from 5-10 and then went to marisha and maries. marisha liked the card i gave her and marie thanks me for the cardi sent home with marisha on wednesday and i felt so out of place. i havent hung out with church people for so long that i dont feel like i fit in much anymore not that i ever did i guess i just noticed tonight that i was somehwere else the whole night. where was i, im not sure but i think that sometimes you hold on so tight to things you choke the life out of them...
i guess i need some more instructi0ns on where to be and when *lifted* whos getting married and when and where and sometimes i wish inamed my blog my name and so did everyone else so i wouldldnt just wonder who you all were but then i think if you are named joe that isnt much help either. really i guess i am just trying to say one week of 23 and i still feel lost as ever maybe more so tonight than id like to admit. i need to get up in 5 hours to work again so i am going to sleep now. maybe this all pays off in the end.