Cause I've got a dream for us Running threw my mind Sitting on the beach Looking at the sea

so its been two weeks since i met crystal. well i wouldnt say that i met her, she is the girl who i talked with at the belmonte who told me that she loved me two weeks ago. well i saw her again last night and i asked her if we could hang out sometime. she gave me her number but with a warning. she said that she was having some torubles with her emotions and that she wasnt sure how much she could hang out becuase she wanted to be loved sooo bad. there was a part of me that wanted to tell her that i have a lot of trouble with my emotions cause i would love to be in love or feel loved and there isnt much of that happening right now in my life. i tried to call her tonight to see what she was up to but she wasnt home.

i hung out with marie last night, we went and saw danica at the belmonte. jeremys little brother is the drummer for this band. they were decent but it was real smokey and i got a head ache. there was a bunch of people that i saw there and i talked to them a little and it was loud and i didnt want to be rude so i tried to introduce marie but it was just akward and wierd. so then we went to emack and bolios and had some ice cream and as we were ordering the guy asked us if it was together or seperate and i said seperate but felt like an idiot. man i really didnt do so hot last night. i mean i asked her to go out and then i made her meet a bunch of people and then didnt buy her icecream. jeezy lou weezy i am an idiot. i guess it just came down to the line and i had to decide whether it was more akward to let the girl pay or to say i would like to pay for her and have her argue. i think i went with i feel less stuped letting her pay for herself cause i would rather be ok with the stranger than make everyone feel akward. next time i will just pay for her i guess.

had some pappys today and i am pretty sure they have the best pulled pork in town! if you are in springfield or you come and visit me than we should eat at pappys. school starts in two days and i am not excited...