if you decide to end your stay ill board up the doors and walk away...

back from springfield and it was a great trip. i saw kaleb and jeremy and had very meaningful conversations with each of them. i confessed my love to a girl i had been writting letters to all summer and she said that we could still be friends but we shouldnt write letters anymore. it was a lonely drive back to kc and i think that i had that feeling that i have in north dakota a lot the one where i think i might puke any minute. i wonder if this lonely feeling will get worse as i take that fourteen hour trip home alone.

i bought the new sufjan album and there is some great stuff on it. i love what he says on the john wayne gacy, jr. song... even on my best day i am just like him... its so true sufjan its so true even on our best days we are no good. picked up experiential story telling and blue like jazz to add to my reading list made it through the first three chapters of story telling already. things are good. lonely but good.