i could tell you all about it, i could tell you why i doubted, and why i still believe it...and why i need it and what the pharisees don't see...

An observation that i made tonight as i witness yet another act of infidelity... i think i can change the world or at least change some kids view of the world. We all grow up a little jaded and bad stuff happens to most of us some worse than the next guy and people like me live relatively problem free lives. i think to make this change in the world though i have to get out of this hotel!!! You see as a friend pointed out to me Monday night when all you see is people who are so messed up it begins to be the norm. You start to think that everyone is cheating or being beaten or strung out and hopeless. These are the adults who are helping the youth grow up with those jaded eyes and i might be able to say something in passing that will help them see some sort of light, but the bigger need for change is with those who are being effected by the careless adults who are living their lives in digression, trying to relive the best times of thier lives which happened when they had no responsibility, which is no longer the case. how could someone be so open about cheating? i suppose large quantities of alcohol hinder judgment quite a bit, and apparently enough to tell the front desk worker at a hotel that he can only have your home number if he promises not to call your husband. i have been fighting the urge all night to place an anonymous call to the husband. and there are still enough hours in the night to be persuaded and i admit im almost there.

and if you would have known what this means, i desire mercy, and not a sacrifice, you would not have condemned the guiltless

my heart is broken for those who have been forgotten by careless adults and judged without mercy by *christians* God let me always see the humanity in light of you may my love reflect the love that has been shown to me. may i be more concerned with showing mercy to those in need than fighting religious fights that arent changing lives.